The Epiphany

You know when you reach a certain age and you find yourself needing to grow up? Well

I am at this point in my life. On my 26^th birthday I realized a lot of things about myself

and not a in a good way I might add.  I mean at 26 years old I should have things in control, I should know who I am and what I stand for and what I plan to accomplish, but I couldn't see it. So after spending about an hour and a half crying my eyes out in my best friend car, I came to the conclusion that I am fat,​ ​broke and severely depressed. Don't get me wrong I have a good life, I think that I just got too comfortable with the things that I knew I c​ould ​change. 

Then I thought to myself “Khai” (Oh yeah that’s my name by the way lol) “Yes Self” I answered “Why do you think your fat, broke and depressed” and I could not answer it for the life of me.

I mean, I have friends I am quite social with a beautiful personality, funny as hell and have always been "The Fat Chick" in my group of friends and I was OK with that. I  have never ​tried​ to be anything other than me​;​I love food​ - I mean​ who doesn't​?​ I just think ​that ​my love for food has become a boyfriend​ that ​I just can't get rid of​,​which I think has contributed to me being fat LOL.

So if I could see these good qualities in me why does my life feel like it is in a state of chaos? I realized at that point I needed to change my way of thinking and put a plan into action. So I made a list and checked it twice (hence the Christmas reference lol) of things I needed to do and change in my life and I t​hought ​I ​would share it wi​th ​you guys.

 Khai's Lists 

. Lo​​se 90 pounds (Break up with my Boyfriend)

. Try to save around 10,000 dollars

. Cut off all my hair and go natural (which I have a ready done)

. Get a drivers license

Seems like a lot to accomplish in a year huh?​ ​Well I look at it like this ​- ​I may succeed or I 

may fail miserably but I ​would have at​ least tried​ and followed through with something for once in my life. ​

 

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So in the mi​d​st of me trying to change my life and finding out who I am​, ​I t​hought ​you guys might enjoy coming along on this crazy ride with me. 

 

​This blog has become my new diary​;​who knows what can happen​..all I know is ​​I may inspire someone do something great​.. ​​​I m​ight​ annoy the hell out of my readers or you may genuinely enjoy it​. Either way I would have done something great​ - for me. 

Thanks for listening and reading

Signed

The chronicles of a  Funny, Fat and Fabulous chick  xoxo